4 Years

I can't believe it's been 4 years since I was last happily pregnant. I had lunch out and just wanted to shout "I'm having a baby!" to anyone who'd listen.  An hour later, my life was irreparably changed by the words, "there is no heartbeat, and no movement" by a very sweet ultrasound tech. It's something I never would have imagined could happen to me, but as people with a solid faith in God have said,  "why not me?" I am not immune to sadness and loss and I now have 2 babies waiting for me in heaven to prove it. Today, 4 years since the first time one of my babies died, is a day to remember them and all the babies who knew only love. I Iove you, Taylor, and can't wait to meet you and your brother... Someday.